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最近、施術をしながら少しずつツボを覚えている。
その中でも、前から一番気になっていたツボがある。
志室（ししつ）。
腰にあるツボ。
私自身が一番押されたい場所。
マッサージを受けるなら、私は腰のこの辺を押されるのが一番好きで、厚い掌、太い指でじんわり押されると恍惚してしまう。笑
だから今日はその志室について調べてみた。
まず場所そのものより名前が気になる。
志室。
志の、室。
なんで腰に志があるんだろう。
調べていくと、中国に黄帝内経（こうていだいけい）という、とても古い医学書がある。
その中の霊枢（れいすう)には
「腎は精を蔵し、精には志が宿る」
という考え方が出てくる。
昔の中国医学では、腎は生命の根本となる精を蔵すものと考えられていて、その精に志が宿るとされた。
そしてその志を収める部屋で、志室。

昔の人は、身体と精神を今よりずっと一続きのものとして捉えていた。

そしてまた、もっと面白いものを見つけた。
同じ霊枢の中に、人間の精神が動いていく過程を表したこんな順番がある。
意 → 志 → 思 → 慮 → 智
簡単にすると、
心に何かが生まれる、意。
意の向かう先が定まる、志。
志をもとに考える、思。
さらに先のことまで考え、慮。
そして物事を判断し、処理する、智。
これを見て
志が思っていたよりずっと最初にあることに驚いた。
私は志というものは、色々考えた末に定まるものだと思っていた。
ところが、この順番では違う。
思より先に志がある。
まず心に何かが生まれて、その向かう方向が定まる。
考えるのは、そのあとだ。
そして、この順番を見ていたら少し笑えた。
私のことかな？と笑
私は昔から、何かに興味を持つとすぐにやってしまう。
といっても、思い立ったら即行動のような信念があるわけではなく、単なる面倒くさがりだ。
単純に、考えるのが面倒くさい。
興味を持った瞬間には気力がある、しかしその気力は長続きはしない。
くよくよ考えているうちに、　面倒くさくなって、やらなくなってしまう。
だから、興味を持ったら先にやってしまう。
一度やると決めたなら、どうせやるし、
気力なんて、あとからついてくるだろう、と。ついてこなければやめればいいし。
今まで私は、自分のことを行動先行型だと思っていた。
でも、この
意 → 志 → 思 → 慮 → 智
という順番を見ていると、少し違うのかもしれないと思った。
私は考える前に行動しているというより、
考える前に、方向を決めているのかもしれない。
方向さえ決まってしまえば、
一番面倒なやるか、やらないかについて考える必要はなくなる。
どうやるかだけを考えればいい。
と言えども最後に、判断するわけだから、志があるだけで、正しいところに辿り着けるわけではない。
でも、志がなければ、どれだけ考えても思考の向かう先がない。
志を立てろとはよく言われたけど、そうか、それは思考の向かう先をまずは定めろってことだったのかと今日腑に落ちた。
そう考えると、志というものは、今まで思っていたよりずっと根っこの部分にあるのかもしれない。

腰にあって、私が一番押してほしいツボ。志室。
それを調べていたら、2000年も昔の人が考えた志とは何たるかに辿り着き、
最後には自分がどうしていつも、興味を持った瞬間に動いてしまうのかを考えていた。

いやはや、志室すごすぎるなぁ。



Shishitsu — The “Chamber of Will”
Recently, I’ve been learning acupuncture points little by little while practicing massage.
There is one point that I’ve been particularly curious about for quite some time.
Shishitsu (BL52).
It is located in the lower back.
And it happens to be the exact spot where I personally love being pressed the most.
Whenever I get a massage, this is the area I want someone to work on more than anywhere else. When it is pressed slowly and deeply with a broad palm or thick fingers, I practically melt into bliss. lol
So today, I decided to look into Shishitsu.
Before its location or function, though, what caught my attention was its name.
Shishitsu.
The shitsu means something like a room or chamber.
A chamber for shi — 志.
But why would something called “will” be located in the lower back?
As I looked into it, I came across an ancient Chinese medical text called the Huangdi Neijing (The Yellow Emperor’s Inner Classic).
One of its major sections, the Lingshu, contains the idea that:
“The Kidney stores essence, and essence houses Zhi (志).”
In ancient Chinese medicine, the concept of the Kidney was broader than the anatomical kidneys of modern medicine. It was believed to store jing (精), or essence, which was regarded as fundamental to life, and zhi — will or intention — was said to reside within that essence.
And shitsu (室) means a room, chamber, or place in which something resides.
Hence the name:
Shishitsu — the chamber of Zhi.
People in ancient China seem to have understood the body and mind as much more closely intertwined than we tend to think of them today.
But then I found something even more interesting.
Elsewhere in the Lingshu, there is a fascinating sequence describing the development of human mental activity:
Yi (意) → Zhi (志) → Si (思) → Lü (慮) → Zhi (智)
To put it very simply:
Something arises in the mind — Yi (意), intention.
That intention becomes directed toward something — Zhi (志), will or direction.
From that direction comes thought — Si (思), thinking.
Thinking extends further into consideration of what lies ahead — Lü (慮), deliberation.
And finally comes Zhi (智), wisdom or judgment, the ability to judge and deal with things appropriately.
When I saw this, one thing surprised me.
Zhi comes much earlier than I had imagined.
I had always thought of “will” or “aspiration” as something that becomes established after we think things through.
You think, consider, struggle with something for a while, and eventually decide:
“Okay. This is what I’m going to do.”
But in this sequence, that is not how it works.
Zhi comes before Si.
Direction comes before thought.
First, something arises within us.
Then its direction is determined.
Only after that do we begin to think.
And looking at this sequence made me laugh a little.
Is this about me? lol
I’ve always been the kind of person who does something almost immediately once I become interested in it.
Not because I live by some noble philosophy like, “Take action the moment inspiration strikes!”
I’m simply lazy.
Thinking about whether to do something is a pain.
The moment something catches my interest, I have plenty of motivation.
The problem is that my motivation doesn’t last very long.
If I spend too much time thinking about whether I should do it, how I should do it, whether now is the right time, and so on, eventually the whole thing starts to feel like too much trouble and I end up doing nothing.
So when something interests me, I tend to start first.
Or rather, I decide first:
I’m doing it.
Once I’ve decided to do something, I know I’ll probably do it anyway.
The motivation can catch up with me later.
And if it never does, I can always quit.
Until now, I thought of myself as someone who simply acts before thinking.
But looking at this sequence—
Yi → Zhi → Si → Lü → Zhi
—I began to wonder if that description is slightly wrong.
Maybe I don’t act before I think.
Maybe I choose a direction before I think.
Once the direction has been decided, I no longer have to deal with what, for me, is the most annoying question of all:
“Am I going to do it or not?”
All that remains is:
“How am I going to do it?”
Of course, the sequence does not end with Zhi.
After Zhi comes thought, then deliberation, and finally judgment.
So simply having a direction does not guarantee that we will arrive at the right answer.
But perhaps:
Without Zhi, no matter how much we think, our thoughts have nowhere to go.
I’ve heard people say, “Have ambition,” or “Set your aspirations,” countless times.
But today, something finally clicked.
Maybe what that really means is:
First, decide where your thoughts are going.
Seen that way, perhaps Zhi lies much closer to the root of human thought than I had ever imagined.
It all started with a point in my lower back.
The spot I want someone to press more than anywhere else.
Shishitsu.
I looked it up simply because I was curious, and somehow ended up reading about how people nearly two thousand years ago thought about the nature of Zhi — will, intention, and direction.
And eventually, I found myself thinking about why I always start moving the instant something catches my interest.
All because of one little acupuncture point in my lower back.
Good grief, Shishitsu is incredible.